I need to go to the doctor tomorrow to get a new script to Valium and more codeine. That's if they give it to me. I feel like I'm just sinking lower and lower. Supposed to be on 25mg, max 30 a day but the last few weeks I've been doing lines hourly somedays. Up to 100mg a day. In public toilets, restaurants, at home locked in the bathroom. All time low today, at church.
I've also started struggling with my eating disorder again for the first time in 12 months. Normally I swap one for the other, now it's both
Have had 11 pills to last 3 days and feeling so so sick already. I have 2 left to sleep tonight and no codeine. Nothing. Not even kids phenerghan, I've searched the cupboards.
Feel like its make or break time. I know I sound like a broken record. Just need to talk. Need courage for tomorrow if I get an appointment.