Well the only thing I have for support right now are the NAR ANON meetins on fri and sunday nights, soberrecovery, and my best friend who lives all the way in israel. Im trying but its so hard to not think of him. Im a mess and i feel like everything is OK in a sense hes moving on completely fine without me. doesnt care to text me back or anything.....maybe hes on drugs again? he told me i cant even contact his dad and step mom to thank them for the wonderful things they have done for me......but yet he told them we r broken up...so whats the big deal? is he lying....? probably....SIGH......god give me strength.......
