Greetings RachelNorth
I'm with you about being sober & miserable. My sponsor told me to give it time coz I've got a lot to deal with. Then someone shared in a meeting that time takes time then I finally got it. If evthg changed @ snap of fingers, then there wouldn't be as many people in recovery around the world. The trick is to go thru the hard stuff w/o pouring a drink over it & saying "I made it"! You mentioned you're out in country kind of alone, so are there no AA meetings around you? Do you have friends or family that are sober that you can confide in?