I can relate a lot to your post Rachel, especially the part about taking a perfectly reasonable request as a personal affront. It's funny how it's the little things that can push us over the edge. But you know that drinking isn't going to make things better. It's okay to feel that way as well but if things are getting you down there are other things you can do besides drink, and other ways to cure loneliness than going to the pub. I come from the sticks so I know how isolating it can be but there can also be a huge sense of community if you get involved. It's so easy to just go back to what we know but it takes some guts to change our lives. Are there any dog walking groups you can join or do you have any other interests you can get involved with. Also having an honest chat with your doctor wouldn't hurt either if you haven't already. It is natural to feel depressed getting sober but there are things we can do about it x