Originally Posted by
zoso77 
Lily, what is stopping you from leaving him?
Financials. I am currently employed but its not reliable enough to live on right now and hope to strike out on my own. I'm looking for another job and as soon as I get something more stable, I'm getting out.
He knows this is what's going to happen- its no surprise that we're broken up and I'm trying to escape this hell hole. We live under the same roof, but the detachment and separation grows every day. I suppose that's the silver lining.
I'll still be a hot mess when I move my final box out-- but I know in my heart that I'm moving in the right direction. That's what's keeping me going. That and being consciously aware EVERY DAY to work on my codependence and fight any urges I have with positive actions instead (write in journal, come here, go for a walk, read a book.)