Thanks. Yes misterritter I know it makes sense and usually I am so much happier sober but I know what you mean about nothing changing. I did 9 months sober but only took away the drink and didn't add anything to my life. This time round I intend to get it right. but without booze I am an oversensitive wreck and sometimes just earn for the numbing effect of the booze. Think I am just having a bad day. have stopped crying now, maybe I just needed it. thanks for replying.