Sounds like some Alanon or Naranon meetings just might help you to work on you.
I say both because many times there are a lot more Alanon than Naranon in one's area and thus more times and days to fit into one's schedule.
I am sorry for what you are going through but very glad you found us!
The above programs are for you/us. By working the program it helps you/us to figure out why we were attracted to an addicted person, helps us to build our own self worth and self esteem so that our insides are healthier and thus we start to attract others whose insides are more like ours.
I know you want to see him get better. Say a prayer to your HP to have his HP watch over him. Say it daily if you like.
As as been said above YOU DODGED A BULLET even though you may currently not think so. Read some of the threads on this forum and you will see just how big that bullet is.
As you are starting to see with just your thread, you can come here as often as you want or need to and rant, rave, scream, cry and yes even laugh. We do understand and are here to help you walk through the pain and on into the sunshine.
You can do this! I know you can!!! You will get through this.
Love and hugs,