Oh sweetie, I'm sorry. You're human. Allow yourself some slack. Is it great that he has some sobriety under his belt and that he is working a program? Yes! Does that mean that all the pain that transpired is now magically gone and fixed and forgiven? Hells to the no! It takes time. And you can do it on YOUR timeline, not his. A's have no idea what we go through living with them and loving them. There's a lot of pent up pain. You are not a failure. He's still quite green and new in his recovery, and so are you. Just keep at it. Take care of yourself, and remember, "progress not perfection."
Sending you strength, hope, and hugs.
