Thanks Sandgirl and BP for asking about me. I am still here lurking. It is almost a month since my first post on SR and I have been spending a bit of time evaluating the past month. I have concluded that not much has changed with me - I have the desire to quit but lack the drive/will - whatever you want to call it. I need to think about this more and really analyse why I am holding back and not fully committing. I know that fear and worry come into the equation. I havent posted much because I don't feel that I have anything positive to contribute at the minute. You are all doing so well and facing and overcoming your challenges - whereas I seem to fall at the first hurdle every time. I read your posts daily and see how positive stopping is. Its just like I can't let go of what is familiar - albeit destructive
I will keep reading your posts and a lot of soul searching.
xxx