Thank you so much everyone, am really moved by your support and your kindness. Today would feel unbearable without you, and yesterday would have been much worse. I am so happy I found this site. Am still feeling very disappointed with myself, but will try to remember this next time I am tempted. Am moving back home for a while to get back on track and hopefully it will be a more healthy environment for me. Hope you are all well. A big hug and Thank you!