Mamakit,
It sounds like you know this is the right way for you to go with the visit proposal. If you are at all like me, you are probrably just afraid of his reaction to it. I am deep in my divorce and I have learned to let the lawyers take the brunt of it. You can always get an peaceable communications order, if he becomes to much of a bully.
I totally understand you feeling like a big baby. Everytime I have to go forward with change to the orders, I am off balance for about a week.
Good luck and just remember that you are doing what is best for your kids not punishing your ex.
Best of luck,
4MyBoys