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Old 04-07-2013, 06:16 PM
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Are you crazy for even thinking about getting together to talk with him?

You are part of the alcoholic pattern. It is a very very common pattern, Jodane, and most women who have been hurt, rejected, and betrayed by an alcoholic do jump right back on the crazy train again the moment he calls.

The pattern is so predictable that we here on SR often say to posters about the alcoholic or drug addict: "He's going to loop back" "You haven't heard the last from him" "They show up again and again and again, be careful".

People could make money betting on outcomes like these. The alcoholic is self-absorbed and self-seeking. He moves from person to person, situation to situation, in a constant attempt at self-gratification.

It is common that an alcoholic who breaks up with his girlfriend when he is at his most inflated and grandiose will then a few days or weeks or months later, contact her when he is in a drunken funk. He's resenting what someone he knows did to him, or the girl he's currently exploiting did something he didn't like....it can be anything but the core thing is that it is about HIM wanting someone to serve HIM.

This is because alcoholics get used to the quick fix. That's what addiction is. It is a quick fix to life. Alcoholics become extremely selfish people because they lose the ability to delay gratification, to be uncomfortable, to wait and see, to work things through, to give of themselves.

He is looking for you to temporarily fix his mood.

And the moment you set a boundary or have a genuine need, he will lose interest.

You can risk this, if you choose, you can talk to him and see. But it is very possible that any reunion with him will blow up very quickly. And I say that just to let you know right now, in advance: it is not your fault. It is not you. It is not because of any personality trait, physical trait, family, friends, pets or hobbies you might have that he walks out on you again. When an alcoholic wants to drink, he will criticize the area of your life which you are most sensitive about, most uncertain of, or which you are even most good at. If you like looking at houses on Sundays, he will criticize that. If you like making art, he will criticize that. If you are good at your job, he will criticize that.

This is because addiction--the dark destructive force of addiction--will put up with anything in the alcoholic's life which does not interfere with his compulsive pursuit of alcohol. But the moment something or someone poses a real threat to that drive to drink, the relationship will blow up.

So just be careful: alcoholics say words that burn right through the skin. It takes some people years to recover from the wound. Be careful.
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