PS:
Before I had a program, "feelings" were terrifying. They were exactly what "being out of control" meant to me. I worked so hard to suppress feelings that I often wasn't even aware of what I was feeling or even that I was feeling. Feelings were dangerous, who knew what could happen if I let them out of their cage!? Controlling them took so much effort and energy--and it left me numb.
One of the the many amazing things about my program was that I have gradually learned that I can have feelings and the world won't come to an end. That takes courage, practice and trust. But each time I had feelings and learned that the world wasn't going to end, that gave me a little more trust and confidence. Over time, I've found myself willing to be more and more open. "As I give to the world, so the world will give back to me."