Sobreia- I'm the same kind of drinker. Sometimes I'd go a couple weeks without a drink and forget about how awful I felt. Then I'd take one drink and it would turn into a 3-4 day binge that left me barely able to move. I'd feel depressed and ashamed at my behavior and that would last a few days or a week and then it's on to the next binge and the cycle kept repeating itself. I just joined this site a few days ago after finally coming to the conclusion that I can't drink in moderation. I just can't. So I finally decided I needed to stop entirely and came here. I only have 4 days of sobriety, but I know I can keep it up and that my life will be much better if I do. I think you can do it too and your life will improve as well. Good luck!