Help
I am addicted to vicodin. It's gotten very bad. I have to take 10mg pills and drink a fourth of a bottle of benadryl and take other things if i have them(lyrica, xanax, soma etc...)to get a buzz. I am scared. I buy them off the street and use money that is supposed to be for bills. My husband thinks I am clean. I'm afraid he will leave me if he finds out. I pawned my wedding ring last week and realized I have hot bottom. I made an appointment for outpatient rehab on Monday. I have two boys 18 and 15 that I homeschool. I do evertbing I'm supposed to do (clean cook laundry etc) and then I get high at night after everything is done. In days I don't have pills I can't function I just spend the entire day trying to find them. I have been doing this for 15 years now off and on. Mostly on...I'm so scared. I want to get clean.