Originally Posted by
Midlifecrisis 
Hmmmm. I dunno. I fear closeness. I fear intimate conversation but at the same tkme crave it. I never learnt it. I learned very early on (age 7) to keep secrets and be emotionally distant. Then as a teen love was, well, you know, with boys
. Not healthy. I love my kids so Mucknit freaks me out. Hard to explain. Maybe I never felt loved like that.
well, look at it this way: yer gettin a lil intimate with us and openng up some. good on ya again!!
fear intimate conversations; maybe fear of what others may think?
i never learned how to communicate until i got into recovery. well, i did know how to communicate, but it was more the drunken sailor communication.
the only way i leanred( and am still learning) is by practicing.i had ot start somewhere
actually, ya said prolly more than ya realize right here.