What I heard Mid, was that you are sleeping a little to much. When I was abusing benzos I thought I was awake more than I was.
Thing is, I didn't even know what day it was. My husband said I was always in a stupor and passed out most of the time.I was also in this insane cycle of obsessively counting my pills every day every hour looking at the calender to see how many I would have left and then all over again.
Are you neglecting your children? If we asked your husband would he give the same answer? Mid you need help now. Those children need a mother. A mother who is wide awake.