Thanks @zoey09 and @Received if this were a lesser blog I probably would've been chastised for being a 'n00b'. Haha yeah the AV. I've always called my AV the dark passenger based on the show 'Dexter'. He's a dick but I learned how to keep him at bay.
@SoberKnitter I completely agree with our first couple of months being the point I'm which we define life on our own terms. I'm approaching month number three and i couldn't be more eager. Although there are sometimes overtones of fear which really affects my ability to move forward. I'm sure its because I'm thinking to far ahead as oppose to living in the now. Something I thought I had under control but lost focus of recently.