Welcome Aunore. I think you'll find being here will help you a lot. It meant so much to me to have others to share with, who really understood what I was going through.
It sounds like you've reached the point where it's no longer fun - just a dangerous habit that's complicating your life. I think you'll love being free of it - waking up feeling refreshed instead of beaten up - wouldn't that be nice?! It's a great feeling, and you can do it.