Welcome back ODAAT
many times I found myself knowing what I should do, but simply unable or unwilling to do it.
My addiction loved that kind of inaction.
Your feet may feel like lead, that phone may weigh 500 pounds, that meeting may seem to have a force field around it....you may feel like nothing better but curling up in bed and hoping it all goes away....but you're fighting for yourself here.
You're worth the effort.
Break the impasse
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