Originally Posted by
odaat 
No one can fix me I know, this is my responsibility. I've been here too many times before, I just don't know if I even want things to change. (
This sounds like an echo of your November post.
You are right. This is your responsibility. More importantly, you have others who depend on you. So do what worked for you before. Quit dwelling on the negative. Spend a couple of days posting to SR and get back in the recovery groove. Not sure what more to say. You were sober 6 years, I think you know what to do.