I know Toots. I am just so angry cos it feels so unfair. I'm sorry everyone but I'm just not sure where this has come from. I feel like I'm about to have a full blown tantrum here. Need to calm down. Off to shop to get bread - nothing else. Husband is with me I was so happy earlier thinking of all the new possibilities. Now am throwing toys out of pram. sorry sorry guys. I am just venting. Started to explain to husband in a reserved manner that I was feeling edgy. he understood but I have saved my real feelings for you guys. Sorry again. Hope your day is going well. Talk later. Too angry with everything just now