Today a friend asked: Are you still not drinking?
Without a beat, I said yes, I am not drinking for the rest of my life.
Just want you all to know in the first month I said im not drinking to myself only hour to hour, day to day.
When I was finally many months out I told myself, for a year, I promise myself at least a year I won't drink.
By a year, I had experienced every common trigger, holidays, grief anniversaries, weddings, funerals, parties, loneliness, work stress, debt, illness...blah blah blah. I not only don't want to drink anymore, but the thought appalls me. Somehow in my mind it is now equivalent to drinking a pint of strychnine.
Alcohol wants to kill me. I want to live. It's that simple.
My point is you won't get confident or feel natural till you do it. Doing it makes you see that abstinence is what you want after all. Now and forever.