Originally Posted by
jayho78 
I need to know I'm not the only person who's had this internal conversation and how to defeat that voice and stop that nasty cycle.
I have one of those voices.
Originally Posted by
jayho78 It's that self-serving voice that thrives on instant gratification and doesn't care about hurting people or consequences that's going to kill me and ruin my life.
You NAILED it! That part of your brain makes no moral judgments. It's like the lab rat that will push the lever to get the drug until it is dead. Except you're the lever.
Originally Posted by
jayho78 I just need help desparately.
Don't let it push you. Tell that voice "no". It will beg, plead, whine, insult, rationalize, negotiate and throw tantrums. Let it. It CAN'T actually hurt you. It will tell you it can. It's a liar. Stop listening to it. Tell it "no".
You can do this.