Originally Posted by
doggonecarl 
Alcoholism is like a mushroom, it grows in the shadows.
You said yourself, you've done countless stupid things. Embarassing things, I don't doubt. So maybe the people you are embarassed to tell already have an idea you have a problem.
If keeping this a secret is going to hold back getting sober, let it out.
Good luck.
You're right.. but I feel keeping it a secret is not what's holding me back. I feel if I remain focused, and committed to my goal, then I will succeed. I'm not an extroverted type of person, especially with my personal issues, I'd rather just fix them without bothering my family and friends.
That being said, I don't really feel like I'm alone in this. I view these forums as an outlet, and I'm proud of myself today because I just got off the phone with a counsellor - I have an appointment booked for two weeks time. It's the first time I've ever planned to go see someone, so I'm excited for that. Bloody expensive though, isn't it