Originally Posted by
DoubleDragon 
A major problem I have is admitting to my family and friends that I have this problem; I find it too embarassing.
Alcoholism is like a mushroom, it grows in the shadows.
You said yourself, you've done countless stupid things. Embarassing things, I don't doubt. So maybe the people you are embarassed to tell already have an idea you have a problem.
If keeping this a secret is going to hold back getting sober, let it out.
Good luck.