hello MagRich,
no advice. but i do know the spot you're in, the one of wanting to want to quit. needing to but not wanting to.
tough place, that.
i've seen others who started from there, with an "i'll just see how this non-drinking thing goes; not sure i really want to be doing this" and for some, the wanting it grew with the doing.
daily participation and involvement in a place such as this was of huge help to me.
i'm assuming you've checked for available secular meetings in your area, such as SMART or LifeRing?
in any case, congratulations on coming out from just reading. and on the day1!!
welcome to you.