Hey everyone. Day 67 here...
Rosie, I know what you mean. I've definitely been in a coccoon and in a real routine that has making it somewhat easy not to drink, anytime that routine is broken it's scary because it feels like there are always opportunities out there. This weekend was at a baby shower, watching everyone else enjoy wine punch while I sipped from the kiddie table. Afterwards, I pictured what it would have been like, drunk and making a fool of myself, and I was grateful for that Koolaid alternative.
I was a sensitive kid too and find it hard not to think of other people before me. I often think that i don't know what i like or need or want from life. I am trying to use my sobriety as a way to answer those questions. I don't have to answer them today. All I have to do today is not drink, and trust everything else will fall into place.
Hope everyone is doing well, Alison