bemyself,
sorry to hear about this.
thing is, there will be always be an "all because of..." in the screwy alcoholic thinking. what was true for me and what i didn't really see until after i quit was that "my truth" was there:
I couldn't stand those thoughts and feelings just as you say.
fact was, i could learn to. didn't have to like it, but i could do it.
so can you.
and yeah, the acceptance and courage thing...nobody says that part is easy, do they?
haha, sail on as if your post weren't there. fat chance!
