My goodness, we're alcoholics...guess what, sometimes we want a drink. Especially when we're early on. 10 months is nothing to sneeze at, of course, and you're doing the things you need to do. But it's still early. Cut yourself some slack. The old timers still go to meetings and work with others and do all the things you do because they are as close to a drink as we are.
Like tommyh mentioned, perhaps doubling up on some things. I have had to do the same when I have been heavily disturbed. I find that when I start to get off the beam, it also means that I am potentially about to breakthrough, spiritually.
Start working with others...doesn't mean you have to sponsor right now (or can you??). That will make a huge difference.
Wishing you the best.
