Originally Posted by
Toeachtheirown 
This comment resonated so deeply for me. I am so out of shape, it feels absolutely disgusting to me to even take my clothes off anymore. I have never thought of my body as being capable to repair itself, but I guess you're right.
Great point!
FellOnNewDays - congrats on finding this site, like the rest of us! This place seems to be a wonderful community that truly helps the people who come here. Try not to feel shame about your alcoholism, or worry about calling yourself a certain term, I think. The main focus now is staying sober and being proud of yourself for taking the first steps in doing so. Nothing reinvigorates my thinking today like being proud of the fact that I truly, truly do want more for myself. Keep looking forward! Best of luck and congratulations on joining this forum and wanting more for yourself, as well!
I am in the same situation my friend, I was once a size 8, but with the help of alcohol (guinness) have found myself at a size 14, with excessive drinking and eating. BUT, like I said earlier, it is never too late to get it back. Make tomorrow the first day of the rest of your life. Grasp it and get back to being how you were, at a place where you feel comfortable. Alcohol may have ruined your life thus far, but being here is a positive step in getting back. Trust!