Originally Posted by
FellOnNewDays 
I've rationalized many a drink in the past to cure a hangover.
...and any slight to your feelings becomes a reason to drink...Put the reins on your resentment, your anger, and on the fears of what your bf will or will not do. As you've already stated, they just become excuses to drink.
Your emotions are going to be all over the place over the next few weeks. Recovery (vice just quitting drinking) is learning how to deal with these emotions like non-drinkers do...without diving into a bottle for relief.
There are a million reasons to drink. But only one reason why we can't just quit. We're alcoholics.
Welcome.