last May
When I started up my kindle and got onto SR today, my old User name was logged into the site. I looked through the posts. Its the same old cries for help ; the same desperate approach and wallowing to get sober and remain sober. I read through all the helpful replies, the words of compassion......what I really read in those posts is stagnation. What I really read was a woman struggling for support and needing it from every end of the earth to succeed on her mission. What I see at this moment: I have not changed at all. I kept running back to the bottle even though I knew that something drastic was going to take place. What is most impressive to me though, is the relentless effort I have made over the years to stay away from alcohol. I'm impressed that I keep trying and trying and trying and trying. How damn impressive. My name is Patricia and I will forever be an Alcoholic. I will never give up this fight. This time something registered.