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12-05-2004, 07:38 AM

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katze

I am at two with nature

Join Date: Dec 2004

Location: St. Petersburg, FL

Posts: 20

Thanks. I just feel really anxious and jiterry today. It is such a sharp contrast to yesterday when I felt so self-assured and at peace with my decision. Today, I feel like I am reeling from the reality of it all. I can't stop shaking my leg or cracking my fingers. I am so wound up, I feel like I could levitate at this point.

All of the bloody coffee I am drinking probably doesn't help at all. I had planned to go to a meeting last night, but I wussed out. I felt like I was having a panic attack and I couldn't do it. I know that I need to. I feel like a moron for wussing out, but I will go. I plan to go to one today. Of course, that is what I said yesterday. I know I need to know and I know that I cannot do it on my own. I need the support of people who have been through what I am going through. I hate this feeling. It is such a beautiful day and I am sitting here brooding over the way I feel. I should be out enjoying myself. Grrrrr. I hate that I allowed myself to get here.