Quote: "I've only ever attended a total of about eight to ten meetings, but REALLY didn't want to talk, and the more meetings I attended, the more self-conscious I became about being identified as "that chick who comes but never talks." I know you can always pass on speaking if called upon, but I was STILL nervous. I really wanted to attend not just anonymously, but invisibly! Obviously not possible."
I felt like that too at AA meetings. I attended lots of meeting over the years, but was never comfortable speaking about my drinking, recovery or deepest feelings in front of strangers. I used to end up spouting platitudes, and saying the accepted things in order to fit in. I found much of what went on in AA helpful, but the pressure to speak and the lack of anonymity in a small community did not work for me.
I'm not knocking AA as it has saved many many lives but I'm not sure its for me.