Flujay, Get your husband on board, show him the responses here then maybe he can see.
You need to plan your drinking times so that that's when you need help once you've had one it's end game. So doing the dishes concentrate on not drinking that's when you need to work at it, Friday , how would you feel if you woke up sober after a struggle? How would you feel if you got wasted half remember etc , remember those thoughts as you go for the bottle.
Ask your husband perhaps by writing if he minds not having drink in the house for a time.
As time passes and it will if you want to stop it gets easier , then beware of slipping up.
If you do start again , honesty is the key. Stay close to here it will give you a lot of support.
Finally START TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOURSELF.
John.