Originally Posted by
bagpussgirl 
My mum an alcoholic died sudden when I was 18...just. my dad died suddenly when last year of a heart attack. ...I am alone when my husband is away
Then call your husband - perhaps he can return or call someone else he or you knows & trusts that can come over. I can guarantee that if you told him you just downed a whole bottle of vodka he'll be quick to respond. You are absolutely in no condition to be taking care of a child on your own in your current state.
Be strong for your son - you mentioned that you drug him out of bed the other day to go to the store to get more liquor...just remember how bad that made you feel when you were sober and posted about it. Please don't endanger his or your safety by trying that again.
Keep posting and reading here, that will keep your mind off the liquor until someone can come and watch after the both of you.