Hi Mizzuno,
Your first post reminded me of all the years I spent - many years ago - moving to places, then moving away again quite quickly, PRIMARILY because my then-husbands (this happened in two successive marriages) wanted to. Your posts mostly sound like it's HIS needs and wants and unhappiness overwhelming you; when you, as you say (and I remember feeling like this too), feel so indecisive, then it's a bit too easy to allow that other person to 'drive' what happens next.
Perhaps give some thought, on your own, delving deep into yourself, to 'what is it that I might be needing?'