Originally Posted by
bagpussgirl 
Is it normal to feel like you have to be the worst to get help. I remember feeling this way when I wwas throwing up several times a day. But my cousin was in therapy for with anorexia. .. I didn't want to take over. I see now I was sick
I figured it out with the help of a therapy.
I feel like I am not a good enough alcoholic to get help. ..like I need to get worse before I am worth getting help.
Does this seem weird?
It doesn't seem weird, alcohol takes away your logic at times. Even if you aren't an alcoholic drinking an entire bottle of vodka in one sitting is dangerous for you and everyone around you - including your children. Who is taking care of them right now?