My drinking problem began as a thinking problem. When I dwell on the traumatic things in my life that happened, I create anxiety and depression and the alcohol doesn't solve it, but It either feeds the sad feelings or numbs the anxious ones. Its selfish. My drinking also creates completely ridiculous situations, and down right causes shame embarrassment and guilt. Drinking can not be an option for me anymore. I can't be out of control, do something stupid, say I'm sorry and repeat. Drinking takes me to a very bad place. That's why I have decided to get help and quit drinking.
I am sorry that you had such an awful experience. I hope you find support here. Sobriety is a good thing. Embrace it.
