Hey there.
It sounds like you're really hurting, and rightfully so. I cannot imagine enduring such a traumatic event at such a young age. I think about my young child, and am horrified that such evil people lurk in our world. I'm so sorry for what you have been through.
Give the site a chance, and a little time. There are some great people here with much to offer in the way of support. We are on your side.