Give up?
That's what I feel like doing. Seriously.
People think I'm this strong girl but underneath I feel so lost.
The worst thing is that I have given up on me. Before I was like...I can do this etc...but now..I just have no self belief.
I know I'm wallowing, gawd, I hate myself for it.
What is wrong with me?? (I know, it's the addition...)
The sad thing is that for everytime I let myself down, the closer I feel to letting everything go. Its so hard keeping this pretence up...would be easier to say 'yeah, I'm a mess' but instead I have so much responsibility it scares me. People thinking I'm ok and in control and I'm so far from it