I'll be honest, I've never gotten true help before because I just wanted OUT of this whole "disease, addict, 12 steps, meetings, family day at rehab, etc" world, the whole thing. I just wanted to cut anyone off completely the moment they showed signs of addiction and be done with it, but it isn't that easy. I went to one ACoA meeting and the second I heard them doing the 12 steps I was done, because it made me feel like I was joining my dad's world, where he did the 12 steps in rehab and I wanted nothing to do with that. I then just cut him off and tried moving on. But, alas, here I am. I can't just get away that easy. So I am going to try my best to go to meetings, have an open heart and mind, and really try and get better. I hope I can. I'm so mad at my dad for doing this to me.