Thanks for being honest everyone. I thought I had it figured out when I said that :/ Maybe not? I have told him since before we got married, that alcoholism and excessive drinking were deal breakers for me but I guess I am still here. I AM ready to leave if he doesn't get help (well emotionally I am ready, but not finacially) I refuse to end up like my mom who STILL lives with my addict father.
So I guess what I should do is #1 go to an al-anon meeting ASAP (I looked it up and there's one in my town on Wednesday that I'll go to) #2 decide what my boundaries are (I already know that, I wont accept anymore drinking... that's a boundary right?) #3 be prepared to leave if (WHEN) he drinks again. ?
I didn't realize I was so co-dependent, I guess I have a lot of reading and learning to do. I don't know what it's like to NOT live with an addict!! I am more lost than I thought.
I am so sick of alcoholism I just want it to go away...far far away from me.