Hey Non,
I like to quote another favorite member...she says the alcohol question has been "asked and answered". No need to test the hypothesis again, the answer is and will always be the same. That makes it easy to move on. To truly know the answer is to be able to breathe again. It no longer takes up space in my head. I closed the book on it, put it to bed, stuck a fork in it...if I could think of any other nifty cheesy metaphors I would use them.
Now you have more head space to focus on the truly important things in life like family, carpentry...and BACON. xo