Thanks for the feedback. To answer your question, my job pays very well, but I am so sick of it. It is terribly boring and I am a creative person. It is a battle to get motivated to do the work. I did something positive this month and put together an art installation locally. But, I lack the courage and discipline to market myself to make a career at it. I really like children's books and want to work as an illustrator. In the meantime, I can always wake up early to work and take my laptop to a coffee shop.
You are right about change. I do need it. I am going to start by returning to my old hobbies, hiking and gardening, before I became a hermit and avoider.