Thanks 2granddaughters. Yeah, honestly, I can't even pinpoint what I'm feeling but know so far it's better than the feeling of waking up hungover or shame/guilt from drinking. I also know I'm still deep in the woods. Glad I went to the beginner's meeting last night and this particular meeting has been held at the same spot since 1945 with a ton of history on the walls and retired chips of people that lived and passed away sober from the program. I got my first AA chip for 24 hrs. I always declined them in the past thinking it was silly and kinda feel silly that something so small can mean so much to me now. Carrying in my pocket today along with a list of guys in case I'm getting ancy at 5:00 (or noon for that matter). Another meeting tonight.