I'm sorry you are struggling EverHopeful.
I am glad you are praying though. I have started praying much more also and I believe it has been helping. It is nice to just give it over to God. I just pray that God will help me through this and that He will protect my EX and hopefully guide him to a good path. We are not in control anymore.
I'm not sure about the signs.... I've never really had that experience. But like you said, he is gone. It is hard to accept that....
What have you been doing to distract yourself since the breakup? Have you been hanging around more friends? Family? Shopping? I find that I get really depressed when I stay isolated. I stay fairly busy and plan things to do in my day so that I don't have too much time to think.
Hope the therapist calls you back soon. If not, yes I would try another one. Hope your CoDa meeting went well! I've never been to one, only Al-Anon.
Hang in there.
