Dominorose,
Everyone here just wants to help, so please do not take anything we write as anything other than that. Counseling is great for underlying issues with life. I certainly still have those, even though I have made and stuck to a BP. I do not see myself as having a disease. I have some bad life management skills which drinking covered up. We all are complex and need to work on our physical and mental health on many fronts. how one chooses to do this work is a very personal decision. I started with not drinking and as I get stronger, it enables me to work on other things. Alcohol and bullemia are very similar in that we used them because of inadequate coping skills.
The BP can be made today. I know it is frightening to take away the thing that satisfied your beast, but it can be done. It will get weaker, you will get stronger.
What would your BP look like?