Getting sober is one thing, remaining sober is another. Learning about yourself, especially in early sobriety is HARD. It's taxing. It's emotional. Yes, we all did terrible things to ourselves and to other people we "love." That is the past. Focus on today and if you live each day in an honorable and honest way, you will discover you are a much better person than you once were. YOu will accept the past, not be scared of the future and live each minute of every day. The beginning is tough. I cried alot. I've struggled. But, as each day passed and I learned, read and staying involved in my recovery, each and every minute gets brighter and brighter. I promise you.